i am on my way to complete my dissertation by the time im writing this. errr..maybe i shall say im in my loooonng way to complete it though i only got less than 2weeks more! okay, kembali kepada matlamat utama aku blogging tonight sebenarnya is because i was distracted by this song.

in my last entry i told ya that we'd planned to meet on weekend. thank God, semuanya went smooth until the time for us to say goodbye. something bad was happened. it was really bad, that i had lost my control towards my emotion. honestly, i knew why i got mad that time. tp biarlah ia jadi apart of my secret. okay so what was happened is that i got really mad to him and i left him without a word. thrust me, perangai aku masa tu was really bad. tanpa diduga, it was affecting him too. seriously, i never thought of that. so what happened, yesterday we met for lunch, and again, tanpa diduga, dia meluahkan how disappointed he was last night.

and back to the song yang that i've told before, that song is really a something. aku pernah dengar before this, and pon pernah terlintas di hati dengan mengakui kebagusan lagu ini. tapi tak pernah got chance nak dengar betul2. asyik dengar dlm commercial je. so yesterday he said,

"im so disappointed with you last night. melangkah ke rumah dengan pernuh kecewa. i jumped into bed, thinking of what did i do wrong that making you act that way. by the time i was thinking of you, budak bilik sebelah pasang lagu ni. i had to hold my tears thinking of you...."

aku rasa sangat sebak.

at the same time (referring to the time that he was thinking of me) i was full with anger of thoughts that he just dont love me.

now only i know, that we are really serious into each other. it is so hard for me to believe in this as i had to keep my hope at its lowest (memang payah jugak ni). so the only word that i could say is, LOVE.

i love him. so much.