its the new ugly shoes

it just one bloody word, anyway. & you are so overreact. itu la kiranya kalau trying so hard to be mature. haa macam tu pulak. anyway, aku selalu pesan pada diri, respect people as how you wish people to respect you. but sometimes i put act before thinking. maybe most of the time whenever im with you. semua benda become so spontan. boleh panggil tindakan reflect tak? ya, bila marah, otak reflect hantar msg perkataan yang kasar. slow2, didik diri. tp the other side of me ada bunyi mcm disapprove sangat. ikatan perkahwinan tu lately buat aku rasa hubungan kita agak jauh. every single thing perlu fikir, "eh, mana boleh buat husband mcm ni." "eh husband kot, tak kan nak suruh dia iron baju sendiri,". malas macam mana pon, "kan dah jadi wife. you got to cook for your husband," "im your husband not your boyfriend, tak masuk syurga kalau buat husband mcm ni." sicko. susah untuk orang yang tak matang. so dont get married unless you are damn ready. nak tunggu ready, smpai bila? bukan memberontak, tapi tak bebas dengan fikiran sendiri. terbelenggu oleh diri sendiri punya fikiran. dan dia yang nampak suka kan kuasa "suami" tu. tak happy la. chill la. tak payah la over sangat. i just dont like ditegur dengan ada perkataan, "husband" or "wife" just be normal. like, "please dont use that word". rather than, "dont use that word, im your husband." hahahahahahha apa beza? banyak beza la! psycho.