bulan dah nk mngambang ke?

sometimes there is one time in a month that makes your self felt the worst. and it happened to be this night. i hate my life i hate my self and i hate my bf. semuanya ugly, semuanya tak kena. i hate my life because its plain and boring. im lonely and empty.

i go to work everyday, office yg xada org perempuan utk bertukar2 cerita, just smokes everywhere, lunch alone everyday, balik rumah yg empty, ada org tp org yg sgt weird tak suka bergaul punya species, and it rotates for every single day. perangai pulak dah semakin menua. nk keluar bergembira dengan teman semuanya rasa membazir duet. yeah, obviously i got problem with myself. i met less people, and i know its really not healthy. bt i just cant help it. i got no choice rather than to save. save, save, save! semuanya nak duet! the truth is, im so addicted to shopping. i shop a lot. tp bukan membazir okayh. wait a minute. am i really need those stuff or they just something that i created. i think i need it. ohh sick! 1 baju 1 minggu atleast could make me fell better. kalau xdapat beli baju mcm ni lah jadinya. meroyan. baju rm5 pon xpe. asalkan dapat beli baju. apa jenis penyakit ni. ubat kepada penyakit ini is only about money. that's why i reallly need to saaaaaavvve!!

bf pulak apa masalahnya? masalahnya why does he seems so dumb today? semua cakap pon tak faham. i dont think i use any A.Samad Said punya kind of language, tp semua hint bg tak capai matlamat. bodoh dungu gila. imagine, i said, "i hope you could spend atleast a minute to imagine how my day was so that you could undrstand how important are you in my life." matlamat aku was trying to let him know how dull my day was and i only got him to cheer me up. i bet he must already knew it as i'd been reporting everysingle things i did to him.

tp masalah yg si bf ni buat harini, boleh tak dia reply, "yes i am a priority in your life dengan segala kecekalan yg i ada untuk tempuhi hidup bersama you."

binatang apa tu???? bikin marah kan?! im trying to reverse psyco him, tp dia pulak dgn bangga nya mngaku kehebatan diri. pening taaaakkkkk! stress kann

so the moral of the day, im looking foward to be less emotional towards everything. live my life as how i want it to be without any complaint. tabah la. i am the one who chose to be this way, so face it like an adult. im mature enough, meyyyyyn. stop the vain. vanity is not haute. its not sexy at all for an adult. i am a sexy adult. tabahh uyu tabahhh!!! be coooollioooo

p/s: skrg masih rasa sick with a few friends yg sgt vain online. sicko! maybe itulah mereka, im a psychotic myself! yeuwwwww